Ashley and I’s number is “17.” She would dare to do the unspeakable. It’s funny because she had told me to go to this station… now called “Iheartradio,” saying that she “loved” Shinedown, and I shit you not, I go to it, 5 years later and SHINEDOWN is on the front page…
It’s eerie. Anyway, this isn’t the original video that I saw, but one similar… the original was live in New York on November 17th, 2005. And right when he says his first “I Dare You,” I think of Ashley completely.
He has truly admirable qualities… a good head on his shoulder’s, passion, conviction, sincerity, loyalty. When he says “Call me a liar,” you cannot dispute his authenticity. He knows the truth and it’s irrefutable.
I feel like I should give my very worst fear a voice. I feel like I should say, right now, “I’m afraid she’s going to call me up and tell me that she’s marrying someone.” Another part of me doesn’t want to write that on this page and put it “out” there.
I feel like I am missing out on her life right now… so many things… her grandmother – is she still alive? How’s Wesley? etc.
Yet another part of me trusts that things will turn out the way that they should. You know, it sucks when you know things that other people don’t… yet you have to remain silent. I know some things are better of kept a secret. I also don’t want to, and won’t, die pretending I don’t care. I cannot, for the life of me, be someone that I am not.
There exists an unspeakable, undeniable truth.
Conviction of purpose.