Daughtry – Losing my mind


So I heard this song tonight while in the car downtown writing in my journal, and I heard the narrative, and I was reminded of Ashley…

I can’t help it the girl is still in my head.  I can’t help it that she randomly pops into my head at different times through the day.  Sometimes, some days more than others, it hits me harder.  Anyway, I immediately felt a sadness tonight… not necessarily a “melancholy,” but a sadness, longing, reminiscing, grief-like feeling.

I am sure there is one word for what I’m trying to say, but I can’t think of it.

Anyway, here are the lyrics:

“Losing My Mind” by Daughtry

Never thought a train goin’ any place could’ve changed my life
Never thought I’d say I could go insane, ’til I saw your eyes
And I had to take another look to know for sure
That you could be for real
You found an empty seat sittin’ next to me
And I asked your name
Where you comin’ from?
Where you headed to this Saturday?
‘Cause I’m gonna be out on the town
As long as you are goin’ there with meYeah and my head keeps spinnin’
You got me trippin’
There’s something about the way you move
Yeah, every little single thing you do is like
One part angel and one part danger
But, oh, the kind of crazy I like
You got me losing my mind
I’m losing my mind!

It’s getting hard to sleep
Getting hard to think ’bout much these days
‘Cause everywhere I go
Only thing I see is your glowing face
And the way you light up every room you walk into
Just makes me want to scream

Yeah and my head keeps spinnin’
You got me trippin’
There’s something about the way you move
Yeah, every little single thing you do is like
One part angel and one part danger
But, oh, the kind of crazy I like
You got me losing my mind
I’m losing my mind!

Can’t understand why you got me so far gone
You’re gonna have to lock me up before too long
You’ve got me losing my mind

Yeah and my head keeps spinnin’
You got me trippin’
There’s something about the way you move
Yeah, every little single thing you do is like
One part angel and one part danger
But, oh, the kind of crazy I like
You got me losing my mind
I’m losing my mind!
You got me losing my mind
I’m losing my mind!

I have kind of been distracted by other things and people, but always, in the back of my mind, is her.  I also know (imagine) it’s strange right now with strangers reading this knowing I am pouring my heart out to some girl, or “woman” perhaps I should say, that’s not even next to me, but she has left a permanent imprint on my heart, and that “passion” between her and I never died… that “connection,” whatever you want to call it.So many people don’t believe… and so many people also run away from their feelings.  So many people don’t believe that things can last and moreover that things can work out, and they can, if you let them.  I truly believe that what “goes around” comes back around.  I trust fate.  I believe that “Everything happens for a reason.”

I try not to spend too much time dwelling in my feelings, but I do reflect from time to time, and I do think about things and try to integrate my experiences in such a way that I can learn from them.  I want to grow, and I am always wanting to grow.  I also have a big heart.

Sometimes I think the worst though, and I think about how someday Ashley is going to tell me that she’s marrying someone else, or perhaps I will hear it through the grapevine and that it’ll break my heart and devastate me.  I promise I am not some psycho crazy “ex” of hers.  Ash and I are almost twins.  Heck, we have the same middle name.

Anyway, I’m out living my life, and I know what I want for myself, which is important.  I am confident to say I know what I what.  I am proud to say that I’ve finally figured it out through a lot of soul searching and experiences.  I have standards now.  I am a much better and stronger person because of what I have learned.

Anyway, I wanted to share this song because it was on my mind tonight…

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