There are numbers that play again and again… last night I dreamnt of her. This wouldn’t be the first time… Elliot Yamin, The Notebook, Titantic… all those things. Anyway, I dreamnt last night that her mom got a divorce and bought a new house. My deceased grandfather was even in the dream and the “Somebody I used to know” song by Goyte in the beginning. Ashley and I didn’t talk at first because she was still stuck on gaining her mom’s approval, and her mom didn’t talk to me at first, but I slowly made conversation, and eventually she talked to me. Ashley also eventually came around because her mom liked me. Her mom and I talked about Alanon and going to church! I think that’s funny because I actually left a book on her doorstep that’s Christian, but a book that women in Alanon use! It was an attempt to finally make peace between us and a sign of respect and sincerity. Anyway, it was very interesting and touching… I saw Ashley in the dream and thought she was beautiful, and I respected her and was very graceful. I truly cherished her. Her mother learned to open up to me and started talking to me about things, and it was the beginning stages of her accepting that I might just actually be a good person (before, she always thought I was this huge bull-dyke who turned her daughter gay).
The dream moved me and opened up some doors.