This says it all – Exactly what I believe


Noah, a young man from the working class, lays eyes on Allie and instantly falls in love with her. When Allie refuses his initial advances, Noah remains persistent, and eventually wins her affections. However, Allie comes from an upper class family that has very definite ideas about Allie’s future. Determined to keep Allie from destroying the opportunities her upper class lifestyle affords her, the family leaves the town of Seacrest, leaving Noah behind. Noah writes to Allie every day for a year, but the letters go unanswered, hidden from Allie by her mother. After the year is over, Noah decides to go on with his life, but never forgets the love he once knew. Eventually, after many years filled with hardship and happiness, fate steps in and Noah and Allie rediscover the love they lost.

Elliott Yamin – Wait for you


Wow, classic.

“Wait For Youby Elliot Yamin

I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I’m missing you
& I’m wishing that you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go? You could have let me know
So now I’m all alone,
Girl you could have stayed
but you wouldn’t give me a chance
With you not around it’s a little bit more then I can stand
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?
[Bridge]So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it’s a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you want it to be

[Chorus]

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don’t know what else I can do
Don’t tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I’m fine it just ain’t true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do I’ll wait for you

[Verse 2]

It’s been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You got me feeling crazy (crazy)
How can you walk away,
Everything stays the same
I just can’t do it baby
What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is & it just ain’t like that
Why can’t you look at me, your still in love with me
Don’t leave me crying.

[Bridge]

Baby why can’t we just start over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But your telling me it wont be enough

[Chorus]

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don’t know what else I can do
Don’t tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I’m fine it just ain’t true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do I’ll wait for you

[Bridge]

So why does you pride make you run & hide
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it’s a lie what your keeping inside
Thats not how you want it to be

Baby I will wait for you
Baby I will wait for you
If it’s the last thing I do

[Chorus]

Baby I will wait for you
Cause I don’t know what else I can do
Don’t tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I’m fine it just ain’t true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do I’ll wait for you

Faberdrive – When I’m with you


 

“When I’m With You” by Faber Drive

Saw you walk into the room
Thought I’d try to talk to you
Babe am I ever glad you wanted me, too
It’s been two years to the day
Half the time I’ve been away
I know I’m not there enough but that’s gonna change
’cause I’m coming back
To show you that I’m keeping the promise I made
When I’m with you I’ll make every second count
’cause I miss you
Whenever you’re not around
When I kiss you
I’ll still get butterflies years from now
I’ll make every second count when I’m with you
Yeah we’ve had our ups and down
But we’ve always worked them out
Babe am I ever glad we’ve got this far now
Still I’m lying here tonight
Wishing I was by your side
’cause when I’m not there enough
Nothing feels right
So I’m coming back to show you that
I’ll love you the rest of my life
When I’m with you
I’ll make every second count
’cause I miss you
When ever you’re not around
When I kiss you I’ll still get butterflies years from now
I’ll make every second count
When I’m with you
Whatever it takes I’m not gonna break the promise I made
When I’m with you
I’ll make every second count
’cause I miss youWhen I’m with you
I’ll make every second count
’cause I miss you
Whenever you’re not around
When I kiss you
I’ll still get butterflies years from now
I’ll make every second count
(Make every second count)
When I’m with you
When I’m with you
When I’m with you
When I’m with you

Crossfade – Invincible


Crossfade – “Invincible”

I memorized all the words for you
But if you only knew
How much that’s just not like me
I wait up late every night
Just to hear your voice
But you don’t know that’s nothing like me

You know I wonder how you already figured out
All these things that I try to hide
All this time i’ve been hoping you don’t find out
All these things that I hide on the inside

I can’t be held responsible
This is all so new to me
Just when I think I’m invincible
You come and happen to me

I want to make sure everything is perfect for you
If you only knew
That’s not like me to follow through
Maybe even give up all these dead end dreams
Just to be with you
But you don’t know that’s nothing like me

Hey yeah I wonder how you already figured out
All these things that I try to hide
All this time i’ve been hoping you don’t find out
All these things that I hide on the inside

I can’t be held responsible
This is all so new to me
Just when I think I’m invincible
You come and happen to me

Now I’m waking up
I’ve finally had enough of this wreck of a lifetime
I never thought I’d survive it
Now I’m taking back
All I gave up for that
Leave my pain behind
Wash these stains from my life

Just when I thought all was lost
You came and made it all okay

I can’t be held responsible
This is all so new to me
Just when I think I’m invincible
You come and happen to me

I can’t be held responsible
This is all so new to me
Just when I think I’m invincible
You come and happen to me

I memorized all the words for you
If you only knew
How much that’s just not like me

From then until now


Ashley and I’s number is “17.”  She would dare to do the unspeakable.  It’s funny because she had told me to go to this station… now called “Iheartradio,” saying that she “loved” Shinedown, and I shit you not, I go to it, 5 years later and SHINEDOWN is on the front page…

It’s eerie.  Anyway, this isn’t the original video that I saw, but one similar… the original was live in New York on November 17th, 2005.  And right when he says his first “I Dare You,” I think of Ashley completely.

He has truly admirable qualities… a good head on his shoulder’s, passion, conviction, sincerity, loyalty.  When he says “Call me a liar,” you cannot dispute his authenticity.  He knows the truth and it’s irrefutable.

I feel like I should give my very worst fear a  voice.  I feel like I should say, right now, “I’m afraid she’s going to call me up and tell me that she’s marrying someone.”  Another part of me doesn’t want to write that on this page and put it “out” there.

I feel like I am missing out on her life right now… so many things… her grandmother – is she still alive?  How’s Wesley? etc.

Yet another part of me trusts that things will turn out the way that they should.  You know, it sucks when you know things that other people don’t… yet you have to remain silent.  I know some things are better of kept a secret.  I also don’t want to, and won’t, die pretending I don’t care.  I cannot, for the life of me, be someone that I am not.

There exists an unspeakable, undeniable truth.

Conviction of purpose.

The Waifs – The River


 

The Waifs- The River

I stood and watched my daddy die,
no one could help his plight.
He was trying to save our home
on the day that the river rose.

It came alive, I heard them say,
There was nothing we could do as he washed away.

… Running from the heart of it,
right into the core of it.

Running from the heart of it…

I’m the man now, but I’m only seven
Well, it’s been hard since daddy went to heaven.
We’re staying now, my mama said,
He worked this land, his life is here.

Running from the heart of it,
right into the cause of it

Running from the heart…

Won’t you follow me late at night,
to the river where the moon is bright.
We can wash our sorrow down
underneath that shining ground.

We’ll be sitting in the still night air,
can’t you feel our daddy there.
There’s life and death and all this power
underneath these shining stars.

Running from the heart of it,
right into the cause of it

Running from the heart…

Thoughts…


“I’m sorry I wasn’t ready to be your friend, but I’m ready now…”

By the way, someone from Lafayette keeps checking my blog every 1-2 days, sometimes a couple times a day.  Could it be… ?

Funny, right after I opened up a blank blog, 3 Doors Down’s “Here without you” song came on:


“Here Without You” – 3 Doors Down

A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don’t think I can look at this the same
But all the miles that separate
Disappear now when I’m dreaming of your face

I’m here without you baby
But you’re still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby
But you’re still with me in my dreams
And tonight it’s only you and me

The miles just keep rollin’
As the people leave their way to say hello
I’ve heard this life is overrated
But I hope that it gets better as we go

I’m here without you baby
But you’re still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby
But you’re still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl its only you and me

Everything I know, and anywhere I go
It gets hard but it wont take away my love
And when the last one falls
When it’s all said and done
It gets hard but it wont take away my love

I’m here without you baby
But you’re still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby
But you’re still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl its only you and me

“This song upsets me. Its really beautiful but it reminds me a friend that passed on. Maybe because we we’re listening to this song on the way to funeral.
I would assume that he has lost a lover/friend.. ”

“Well, I think this is a great love song. It’s about someone who has broken up with his boy/girlfriend, still loves him/her and misses him/her.”

“I think its about that person who (well I’d like to think of it this way) you broke up with either recently or a long time ago. And you later find out or realize that, that person means the whole world to you. Only this time its too dang late. Shes gone and shes so far away and all you can ever do is dream about her, and live for that moment that you will be together in your dreams. Its a sad song, a song of regrets maybe, but generally i think its a sad song.”

“To me, this song is from the point of view of someone that has been left. No matter how much time passes or what they may hear or come to know about the person, they can’t stop loving the one that hurt them.”

“It’s about being with somebody, but not being with them. And being completly in love with them, that you really find it hard to cope without them there.

“He is saying that in his dreams, it’s just him and her, and they can spend the time together, to pass it off as reality for now.”

“This song is about not seeing someone for a long time and you’re without them, you know? I definitely love this song! Haha, my favorite 3 doors down song. It’s such a great song!”

“I believe its about being on the road away from the one you love, and you miss her like hell, and he’s there without her as the song says out on the road(probably on tour) and he dreams about her thats his only way of seeing her for now, so he says that tonights its only him and her, meaning in his dreams, he will be dreaming and thinking of her nonstop and missing her until he sees her again.”

“This song is about being a long way away from the one you love the most. And every night, every day, and everything somehow reminds you of her (or him if you’re female). You can’t stop thinking about her and you know that you’ll see her in your dreams.”

“This song touched me so deeply the first time I heard it. I remember that the guy I cared a lot about at the time told me about it and sent me the lyrics and then I waited for over an hour to hear it on the radio. It was the one song I could ALWAYS listen to, even though it made me sad… and it was my favorite song ever for more than a year. Now I have difficulties listening to it because it brings back painful memories, but I still think it’s one of the most moving songs I’ve ever heard.”

“I love this song soo much, it reminds me of a couple that are far away from each other like maybe the guy being in the army or something and he really misses her and cant wait to be with her again.”

“Its not only about how he can’t live without her, but it’s about how she lied and pushed him away in the first place. He doesn’t want to be in love with her, but he still is.”

“I love this song, it was one of my first favorites and I am still listening to it to this day. Not only do the lyrics have a powerful loving, yet haunting kind of feel to them, the passion Brad puts into his singing really bring out the meaning and emotion in the song, and I love how the song starts off very simple and solemn, with only a guitar going, and slowly builds up the music as the story being told gets deeper and deeper. All with an excellent violin group and chorus in the background to back up the guitar when the song really picks up.

There are so many ways the song can be interpreted…a soldier who’s overseas and missing a loved one back home, a bad breakup, having to part ways with someone special who is now far away, maybe the death of a loved one.

This is what the song means to me, though.

“A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face”

A hundred days have passed since the last time he saw the girl

“A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don’t think I can look at this the same”

Although they were together one time, she must have taken him for granted, because she lied a lot about some unknown issue that steadily drove them apart. He eventually built up an emotional wall to all her stories and lies, until he could not look at her and their relationship the way it once was. He doesn’t think they can be together anymore.

“All the miles that separate
Disappear now when I’m dreamin’ of your face”

He figured the only way they could settle their relationship was to end it, and he had to get as far away from her as possible to keep her off his mind. But now that he’s gone, no matter how far and long he drifts away from her, nothing, not even “All the miles that separate” can help ease his pain, and now that he’s thinking of her, it’s almost like they hadn’t been apart at all, and he’s with her again in his heart.

“I’m here without you baby
But you’re still on my lonely mind”

He’s done what he wanted to, and now he’s distanced himself. But, it’s done no good, because he still can’t stop thinking about her and what they used to have.

“I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby
But you’re still with me in my dreams
And tonight, there’s only you and me”

He can’t keep his mind off her, and although they aren’t together, he still is haunted by romatic dreams of their old life and love together, even forsaking all the hurt she put him through. He relishes these dreams, because they offer him a simple way to escape his hurt and be with her alone, all the drama and complications of the rest of the real world gone.

“The miles just keep rollin’
As the people leave their way to say hello”

Thinking that putting more distance between them will help solve his problems, he continues to roll on, each new place offering no less comfort than the last. No idea what the second line “As the people leave their way to say hello” means, though.

“I’ve heard this life is overrated
But I hope that it gets better as we go.”

People have told him that living this life of denial and running away from your problems doesn’t solve your problems, and that is literally and figuratively all he is doing, just running from his problems. The reasons he has decided to move away still are there, and running won’t make them go away. He hopes that he will be able to start over and live a better life nonetheless.

“Everything I know, and anywhere I go
It gets hard but it won’t take away my love
And when the last one falls, when it’s all said and done.
It gets hard but it won’t take away my love”

This is where the song gets very emotional and vibrant.
Deep inside of him, he forgives her and still truly loves her, but the fact still remains that he can’t be with her because of what happened between them. He starts to realize that no matter what he does, and where he goes, he can’t escape the thoughts he has of her and the place she has in his heart, broken as it may be. And after “it’s all said and done”, that place she holds will never fade or be forgotten because of his love. I love the way the violins continue to play and fade into the background as the song ends, instead of ending abruptly, it’s like they are continuing his message that his love will live on.”

Gavin DeGraw- “Not over you”


Gavin DeGraw – Not over you

Dreams, that’s where I have to go
to see your beautiful face anymore
I stare at a picture of you and listen to the radio
Hope, hope there’s a conversation
we both admit we had it good but
until then it’s alienation, I know, that much is understood
And I realize

If you ask me how I’m doin I would say I’m doin just fine
I would lie and say that you’re not on my mind
But I go out and I sit down at a table set for two
and finally I’m forced to face the truth
No matter what they say, I’m not over you
Not over you

Damn, damn girl you do it well
And I thought you were innocent
You took this heart and put it through hell
But still you’re magnificent
I I’m a boomerang doesn’t matter how you throw me
Turn around and I’m back in the game
Even better than the old me
But I’m not even close without you

If you ask me how I’m doin I would say I’m doin just fine
I would lie and say that you’re not on my mind
But I go out and I sit down at a table set for two
and finally I’m forced to face the truth.
No matter what I say, I’m not over you

And if I had the chance to renew
You know there isn’t a thing I wouldn’t do
I could get back on the right track
But only if you’d be convinced
So until then

If you ask me how I’m doin I would say I’m doin just fine
I would lie and say that you’re not on my mind
But I go out and I sit down at a table set for two
and finally I’m forced to face the truth
No matter what I say, I’m not over you
Not over you
Not over you
Not over you

Nickelback album


I can’t sleep… I have stuff on my mind.  I want to journal but am tired.
This whole album pretty much sums it up…


“Trying Not To Love You”

You call to me, and I fall at your feet
How could anyone ask for more?
And our time apart, like knives in my heart
How could anyone ask for more?
But if there’s a pill to help me forget,
God knows I haven’t found it yet
But I’m dying to, God I’m trying to
‘Cause trying not to love you, only goes so far
And trying not to need you, is tearing me apart
Can’t see the silver lining, from down here on the floor
And I just keep on trying, but I don’t know what for
‘Cause trying not to love you
Only makes me love you more
Only makes me love you moreAnd this kind of pain, only time takes away
That’s why it’s harder to let you go (That’s why it’s harder to let you go)
And nothing I can do, without thinking of you
That’s why it’s harder to let you go (That’s why it’s harder to let you go)

But if there’s a pill to help me forget,
God knows I haven’t found it yet
But I’m dying to, God I’m trying to

‘Cause trying not to love you, only goes so far
Trying not to need you, is tearing me apart
Can’t see the silver lining, from down here on the floor
And I just keep on trying, but I don’t know what for
‘Cause trying not to love you
Only makes me love you more

So I sit here divided, just talking to myself
Was it something that I did?
Was there somebody else?
When a voice from behind me, that was fighting back tears
Sat right down beside me, whispered right in my ear
Said, I’ve been dying to tell you

That trying not to love you, only went so far
Trying not to need you, was tearing me apart
Now I see the silver lining, from what we’re fighting for
We just keep on trying, we could be much more
‘Cause trying not to love you
Oh, yeah, trying not to love you
Only makes me love you more
Only makes me love you more

Orchestral Manoeuvres in the Dark- If you leave


Orchestral Manoeuvres in the Dark – If you leave

If you leave, don’t leave now
Please don’t take my heart away
Promise me just one more night
Then we’ll go our separate ways

We’ve always had time on our sides
Now it’s fading fast
Every second every moment
We’ve got to–we’ve gotta make it last

I touch you once I touch you twice
I won’t let go at any price
I need you now like I needed you then
You always said we’d still be friends, someday

If you leave I won’t cry
I won’t waste one single day
But if you leave don’t look back
I’ll be running the other way

Seven years went under the bridge
Like time standing still
Heaven knows what happens now
You’ve got to–you’ve gotta say you will

I touch you once I touch you twice
I won’t let go at any price
I need you now like I needed you then
You always said we’d meet again

I touch you once I touch you twice
I won’t let go at any price
I need you now like I needed you then
You always said we’d still be friends

I touch you once I touch you twice
I won’t let go at any price
I need you now like I needed you then
You always said we’d meet again someday

If you leave
Oh if you leave
Oh if you leave
Don’t look back
Don’t look back

Nickelback – Holding Onto Heaven


“Holding Onto Heaven”

And if forever never comes then I
And if forever never comes then I
And if forever never comes then I
I’ll hold on and hold onI keep listening to my chest
For a beat but there’s nothing left
It’s been a week since I’ve seen you
And I still can’t believe it
‘Cause I’m dying inside alone
And every day we gotta be apart
I’m like a baby with a broken heart

But the second that I’ll see you
You will know how much I need you
Because I’ll never be letting you go
(Well you know I…)I’m lost without you
And there’s nothing I can do
You’re the one I can’t go without
If I ain’t holding on to you then I’ll be holding out forever
I’ve got you now and
I’m not letting go of you
Never be together long enough
‘Cause every moment I’m with you
It’s like I’m holding on to heaven

And if forever never comes then I
And if forever never comes then I
And if forever never comes then I
I’ll hold on, hold on

And if I could write a symphony
Then baby you would be my melody
And you would flow like a river
Slowly going on forever
Like a feather that’s blowing away
Like everyone that needs a fairytale
Like every mother’s love that never fails
Like every game that needs a player
Every sinner needs a savior
I’m the villain you’re willing to save
Now you know why

I’m lost without you
And there’s nothing I can do
You’re the one I can’t go without
If I ain’t holding on to you then I’ll be holding out forever
I’ve got you now and
I’m not letting go of you
Never be together long enough
‘Cause every moment I’m with you
It’s like I’m holding on to heaven

And I’m willing to wait
Just to see you another day
What I’m waiting for
Will wash this pain away
And it’s never too late
(Never too late…)

And if forever never comes then I
And if forever never comes then I
And if forever never comes then I
I’ll hold on and hold on
Now you know why

I’m lost without you
And there’s nothing I can do
You’re the one I can’t go without
If I ain’t holding on to you then I’ll be holding out forever
I’ve got you now and
I’m not letting go of you
Never be together long enough
‘Cause every moment I’m with you
It’s like I’m holding on to heaven

And if forever never comes then I
And if forever never comes then I
And if forever never comes then I
‘Cause every moment I’m with you
It’s like I’m holding on to heaven

And if forever never comes then I
And if forever never comes then I
And if forever never comes then I
‘Cause every moment I’m with you
It’s like I’m holding on to heaven

Gotye- Somebody That I Used To Know (feat. Kimbra)



Gotye-  Somebody that I used to know

Now and then I think of when we were together
Like when you said you felt so happy you could die
Told myself that you were right for me
But felt so lonely in your company
But that was love and it’s an ache I still remember

You can get addicted to a certain kind of sadness
Like resignation to the end, always the end
So when we found that we could not make sense
Well you said that we would still be friends
But I’ll admit that I was glad it was over

But you didn’t have to cut me off
Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing
And I don’t even need your love
But you treat me like a stranger and that feels so rough
No you didn’t have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records and then change your number
I guess that I don’t need that though
Now you’re just somebody that I used to know

Now you’re just somebody that I used to know
Now you’re just somebody that I used to know

Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over
But had me believing it was always something that I’d done
But I don’t wanna live that way
Reading into every word you say
You said that you could let it go
And I wouldn’t catch you hung up on somebody that you used to know

But you didn’t have to cut me off
Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing
And I don’t even need your love
But you treat me like a stranger and that feels so rough
And you didn’t have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records and then change your number
I guess that I don’t need that though
Now you’re just somebody that I used to know

Somebody
(I used to know)
Somebody
(Now you’re just somebody that I used to know)

(I used to know)
(That I used to know)
(I used to know)
Somebody