This says it all – Exactly what I believe


Noah, a young man from the working class, lays eyes on Allie and instantly falls in love with her. When Allie refuses his initial advances, Noah remains persistent, and eventually wins her affections. However, Allie comes from an upper class family that has very definite ideas about Allie’s future. Determined to keep Allie from destroying the opportunities her upper class lifestyle affords her, the family leaves the town of Seacrest, leaving Noah behind. Noah writes to Allie every day for a year, but the letters go unanswered, hidden from Allie by her mother. After the year is over, Noah decides to go on with his life, but never forgets the love he once knew. Eventually, after many years filled with hardship and happiness, fate steps in and Noah and Allie rediscover the love they lost.

Elliott Yamin – Wait for you


Wow, classic.

“Wait For Youby Elliot Yamin

I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I’m missing you
& I’m wishing that you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go? You could have let me know
So now I’m all alone,
Girl you could have stayed
but you wouldn’t give me a chance
With you not around it’s a little bit more then I can stand
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?
[Bridge]So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it’s a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you want it to be

[Chorus]

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don’t know what else I can do
Don’t tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I’m fine it just ain’t true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do I’ll wait for you

[Verse 2]

It’s been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You got me feeling crazy (crazy)
How can you walk away,
Everything stays the same
I just can’t do it baby
What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is & it just ain’t like that
Why can’t you look at me, your still in love with me
Don’t leave me crying.

[Bridge]

Baby why can’t we just start over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But your telling me it wont be enough

[Chorus]

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don’t know what else I can do
Don’t tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I’m fine it just ain’t true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do I’ll wait for you

[Bridge]

So why does you pride make you run & hide
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it’s a lie what your keeping inside
Thats not how you want it to be

Baby I will wait for you
Baby I will wait for you
If it’s the last thing I do

[Chorus]

Baby I will wait for you
Cause I don’t know what else I can do
Don’t tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I’m fine it just ain’t true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do I’ll wait for you

Faberdrive – When I’m with you


 

“When I’m With You” by Faber Drive

Saw you walk into the room
Thought I’d try to talk to you
Babe am I ever glad you wanted me, too
It’s been two years to the day
Half the time I’ve been away
I know I’m not there enough but that’s gonna change
’cause I’m coming back
To show you that I’m keeping the promise I made
When I’m with you I’ll make every second count
’cause I miss you
Whenever you’re not around
When I kiss you
I’ll still get butterflies years from now
I’ll make every second count when I’m with you
Yeah we’ve had our ups and down
But we’ve always worked them out
Babe am I ever glad we’ve got this far now
Still I’m lying here tonight
Wishing I was by your side
’cause when I’m not there enough
Nothing feels right
So I’m coming back to show you that
I’ll love you the rest of my life
When I’m with you
I’ll make every second count
’cause I miss you
When ever you’re not around
When I kiss you I’ll still get butterflies years from now
I’ll make every second count
When I’m with you
Whatever it takes I’m not gonna break the promise I made
When I’m with you
I’ll make every second count
’cause I miss youWhen I’m with you
I’ll make every second count
’cause I miss you
Whenever you’re not around
When I kiss you
I’ll still get butterflies years from now
I’ll make every second count
(Make every second count)
When I’m with you
When I’m with you
When I’m with you
When I’m with you

Crossfade – Invincible


Crossfade – “Invincible”

I memorized all the words for you
But if you only knew
How much that’s just not like me
I wait up late every night
Just to hear your voice
But you don’t know that’s nothing like me

You know I wonder how you already figured out
All these things that I try to hide
All this time i’ve been hoping you don’t find out
All these things that I hide on the inside

I can’t be held responsible
This is all so new to me
Just when I think I’m invincible
You come and happen to me

I want to make sure everything is perfect for you
If you only knew
That’s not like me to follow through
Maybe even give up all these dead end dreams
Just to be with you
But you don’t know that’s nothing like me

Hey yeah I wonder how you already figured out
All these things that I try to hide
All this time i’ve been hoping you don’t find out
All these things that I hide on the inside

I can’t be held responsible
This is all so new to me
Just when I think I’m invincible
You come and happen to me

Now I’m waking up
I’ve finally had enough of this wreck of a lifetime
I never thought I’d survive it
Now I’m taking back
All I gave up for that
Leave my pain behind
Wash these stains from my life

Just when I thought all was lost
You came and made it all okay

I can’t be held responsible
This is all so new to me
Just when I think I’m invincible
You come and happen to me

I can’t be held responsible
This is all so new to me
Just when I think I’m invincible
You come and happen to me

I memorized all the words for you
If you only knew
How much that’s just not like me

From then until now


Ashley and I’s number is “17.”  She would dare to do the unspeakable.  It’s funny because she had told me to go to this station… now called “Iheartradio,” saying that she “loved” Shinedown, and I shit you not, I go to it, 5 years later and SHINEDOWN is on the front page…

It’s eerie.  Anyway, this isn’t the original video that I saw, but one similar… the original was live in New York on November 17th, 2005.  And right when he says his first “I Dare You,” I think of Ashley completely.

He has truly admirable qualities… a good head on his shoulder’s, passion, conviction, sincerity, loyalty.  When he says “Call me a liar,” you cannot dispute his authenticity.  He knows the truth and it’s irrefutable.

I feel like I should give my very worst fear a  voice.  I feel like I should say, right now, “I’m afraid she’s going to call me up and tell me that she’s marrying someone.”  Another part of me doesn’t want to write that on this page and put it “out” there.

I feel like I am missing out on her life right now… so many things… her grandmother – is she still alive?  How’s Wesley? etc.

Yet another part of me trusts that things will turn out the way that they should.  You know, it sucks when you know things that other people don’t… yet you have to remain silent.  I know some things are better of kept a secret.  I also don’t want to, and won’t, die pretending I don’t care.  I cannot, for the life of me, be someone that I am not.

There exists an unspeakable, undeniable truth.

Conviction of purpose.