I regret to inform everyone, but both of my videos recorded today youtube has cut off. Additionally, youtube cut off the video before the last which is why I did not post it. I have tried re-uploading these videos at least 5 times each, at different times and even on different days, and youtube still insists on cutting them off by 4 minutes so that the videos are only a little over a minute! I am so sorry… I don’t know what else to do…
I am feeling extremely under the weather today and for the last several days. For the last several days it’s been raining here and cloudy… it’s extremely overcast and depressing. I am feeling uninspired and am just wanting to stay inside although I’ve forced myself to go out.
I am frustrated at the rate which things are progressing in my life. I want things to speed up, which I assume is halfway related to me being an Aries — impatience. At any rate, things could not go any slower! I went out today and spoke with some business owners and asked them to put my flyer up in exchange for a free coaching session… I am hope that it makes a difference — even one person could be a good start for me in terms of building my coaching business.
Right now I have 3 clients, but clients come and go — it’s a matter of fact, just like life. Things, in general, come and go — people, opportunities, etc. Doors open, doors close. I am wanting and know that I am capable of building a successful life/motivational coaching practice with continued effort. I will continue to try, but there are days — times, like now for instance, where I am just tired and frustrated. The weather does not help.
Building a business is like getting a plane off the ground. Launching it takes time. I definitely have the persistence, but I need some help. I am currently having a battle with technology. I think I am going to go and lay down for a bit, as I’ve had a pretty long day. I think I am going to put on some meditation music and do some breathing exercises. Did you know that meditation nourishes productivity? :)
People can think whatever they want about me, but the prejudice and adversity just causes me to prevail. In other words, minus my health, I am not very discouraged by adversity and tribulation. In fact, I consider myself to be resilient. For the most part, I can easily bounce back from disappointments.
I believe that when the time is right I will go at it full-fledged. I know that I have what it takes inside to accomplish anything I desire to achieve, but I also do believe in a certain element of fate, and accordingly, I believe that there is a time and place for certain things. I am trying right now to heal carefully and not push my body beyond its physical limitations at any given moment, lest my chances of living a healthy, vital life are compromised.
Some — a small number of people that I have spoken with believe that I am living in a “fantasy” world with my vision and need to get “out” there. I have tried to explain to them that the system/structure must be set in motion before I can proceed to carry out my plan. I understand that the structure I create will not be flawless, as I do not believe in the idea of “perfection,” and I acknowledge that it will need adjustments, and I am aware of this; however, I am trying my best to devise it to the best of my ability before attempting to execute it.
Martin Luther King lead by Vision, and he has, for the longest time, been a role model of mine. He has character and morals similar to my own. Granted, I am much younger than him and also from a different time era, but we share similar values. At any rate, we both shared an embodied vision of our future and both share a single-minded, determination in carrying out that vision.
I will work until my very last breath to fulfill this vision, for not ever having had it in my life accompanied by a spiritual nature is what drives me and fuels the fire. I have a larger vision for myself and my family. I am a simple person with simple needs and an intensely rich inner life. I am interested in only the simplest but the richest ways of living, from filling my body with nourishing, wholesome fruits and vegetables to getting adequate, quality sleep to meditating and exercising.
LIVING, BREATHING, WALKING, INSPIRING, CREATING
Life, fire, water, air, and earth. I need little in life but the basics and a few close friends. My priorites are definitely being defined, and I am being shaped every minute. I am interested in what’s important, not in maintain a superficial, artificial life. I will harness my energies and prepare to release these energies adequately. Once I have completely defined what I want I will simplify it, taking something very complicated and watering it down, but nevertheless not losing its quality or rich “nutrients.”
There is life that lives inside of me. There is hope. There is strength. There is beauty. I am interested in restoring faith — focusing on the big picture. My primary motive is not money – a product of the ego that gets the best of so many individuals.
I am interested in maintaining and developing relationships — bridging the gap between the hearts of others and making peace. I am a pacifist at heart. Integrity is my God and honesty my strength. I am interested in preservation– preserving the roots of community – immediate family and extended loved ones.
“I gotta get this ball rolling,” I tell myself. Life. Future. Family. Life for self and family. Educational opportunities. Travel. Culture. Experience(s). “There is a ‘life’ out there waiting for me,” I tell myself. “I will not let my sickness tear me down,” I tell myself.
“WE can do this — myself and my higher power.” God will help me.
This vision will become a success for me if I listen carefully (to guidance) and know when to surrender my ego (willpower).
Family, success, travel, education, opportunity. What I want for my family I need to be able to provide for myself. My community means a lot to me. My dreams, once fulfilled, will include the community at large.
Money flows. I do not need or want a lot, and I would like for it to always be moving. Energetically, flowing — in and out. I am interested in using it to create resources for others (and my family).
Build a plan. Will be myself (and family) a house. I am honored to be a part of other’s lives. Life itself is a precious gift. This is the way I look at life. I love with all of my heart. When I trust, it’s solid. Trust is huge — very important to me.
I work best self-employed. Cash flow, energy. Travel — opportunities. Growth. Challenge. Advancement, Career.
To take care of my family, to sacrifice. I want to die self-sacrificially — my family knowing I was happy, did my best, and died doing what I loved. She may not see it, but she soon will; she will always hold a special place in my heart.
Work, work, work, build, build, build… a tower. A fortress. Work/family/balance. Instill. Live. Donate. Change. Move energy. “I am strong enough,” says the self-dialog. Based upon truth. I was always honest with her.
Self-rescue mission. Mission NOT impossible. Mission is to live out plan. Vision. To carry out vision. To envision and carry out, step-by-step approach. To pursue, life-long jevity. I will be making a list of those I owe and including it in my “plan” to pay each and every one of them off.
I am interested in living a successful and abundant life, free where I can travel and create opportunity, to inspire, give hope and inspiration. To see. What others do not. My card, “17 The Star,” I am made, chosen to create. I have been chosen. I will give, selflessly of myself and my time, balancing resources and energy.
Family + Community mean the most to me. To thrive. To instill. To provide life — life is precious. Opportunities are like a squeezed lemon; do not waste them! Seize every opportunity in life that is beneficial and in line-accordance with your beliefs and vision for yourself and your future.
“Make it your day –” It’s your life, create it!
Attempting to motivate myself…
PS- My father died Sunday night… May 11th after he went to sleep… the morning of and was discovered on Monday morning.