I have gained 10 lbs since Ashley moved out “officially” April 5th. I chalk it up to not walking past her apartment anymore – that, and depression. I am clearly depressed now that she is gone… I really had hopes for us. Tonight I posted on my Facebook: “I am 100% certain that you are the person I want to be with, and if you were here right now, I would, without a doubt, ask you to marry me, and I don’t think I would regret that decision. I am here when the time is right. Whatever form you come back in my life, I will be here, waiting.”
I really miss her… I also sent her a picture of the moon:
because it’s supposed to be a full moon tonight… I honestly don’t even know whether or not she receives my messages. People will probably think I am crazy, but then again, they probably also think that Noah in the Notebook was crazy. I definitely share his mentality.
I am not one to give up when I know in my heart that something is right, and note I said “heart,” not my head. Ashley is not somebody I think I want, I know in my heart that the relationship is right for me, and it’s a conviction.
I am certainly open to other relationships and am not closing myself off to the chance of love or loving another, but I know that Ashley and I could be happy together… fulfilled. I have learned my lesson and learned from the mistakes of yesterday… 9 years ago.
Noah in the Notebook waited over 7 years for Allie… It has been 9 years, and I am still waiting on Ashley to return… the difference is that her and I have stayed in contact since we broke up. She just hasn’t talked to me for a year and a half… she randomly cut me out of her life out of nowhere.
Anyway, I just wanted to express a little tonight. I am going to go work out now on my favorite work out machine – the row machine :-)