April 29th, 2011. Career expansion-growth.


I would like to work with an organization to help 1. Optimize the organization (ie, it’s structure/order), and I would like to 2. Work directly with its people, using my skills and abilities to help individuals develop their potential…

I seek to work with an agency in helping the agency carry out its mission, values, and vision to the fullest, mobilizing resources, creating energy, and movement

I am interested in work that entails the following:

Staff trainings, team development, facilitating events, leading workshops, educating and training, facilitating personal growth, leading discussions, creating PowerPoint presentations for learning purposes,  enlisting participants feedback, raising awareness, advocating, central role in events/planning, part of a committee board, revising job duties/descriptions, able to revise/updating agency’s website, blog, twitter, and Facebook/calendar, able to create/revise organizational chart, create/develop resource guides & handbooks.

Ideal work environment: -Structured w/clear organizational chart -Ample opportunities for growth and advancement -Ample opportunities for leadership/staff development -Strong focus on personal growth (abundant travel/training opportunities) -Competitive salary w/excellent benefits -Regular staff/board/committee meetings  -Ability to work independently as well as be a part of a strong team -Work with value-minded colleagues… same mission/purpose  

Nature of ideal work…

-Nature of work involves creative, innovative problem-solving -Be able to effect change and policy -Help other employees identify their strengths and weaknesses -Help other employees identify and overcome barriers and challenges -Demonstrate and encourage leadership skills

Ideal job summary (essay): My ideal work environment would have clear guidelines and clear organization.  The environment would allow for creative problem solving and implementation.  *It is crucial that within this structured environment, there are ample opportunities for creativity, innovation, and growth/advancement. The organization would offer a competitive salary with good benefits.  The environment would consist of value/mission-driven colleagues who are passionate and committed to maintaining high levels of personal and professional integrity.

There would be minimal supervision (autonomy/freedom would be valued) but a strong focus on the team and team development.  Ample opportunities for staff development/growth, and learning would be offered. Summary of work: I need work that allows me to be innovative/develop and that’s challenging.  I greatly enjoy overcoming obstacles and barriers.  I also benefit/need a great deal of autonomy (freedom/independence) but to be a part of a strong team with a strong mission.  I would also like to be a part of council or board (committee) meetings where changes can be brainstormed and further improved.

NOT ideal work environment:

-Lack of opportunities for growth and learning -Minimal opportunities for creative problem solving -Heavy supervision (I need freedom/autonomy –minimal supervision)

The organization should be organized (external environment, as well as structurally) and things should be efficient.  Employees should be competent.  I am an idea person, and so I would like to be able to make suggestions and have those suggestions heard and taken seriously (ie, implemented).  I would love to be able to implement those changes myself eventually.  Constant growth, learning, and challenge is essential.  The worst thing is to be working a job that is not rewarding and not challenging, ie: stagnant (ie, conventional).  I would not thrive in an organization that is not open to change and constant growth/development.  I especially thrive in new agencies where programs and curriculum are being developed and there’s ample room for ideas/feedback.

In terms of work, I value:  Organization, Efficiency, Growth/Learning Opportunities, Competent Staff, Challenge, Competitive benefits.

Type of organization I am interested in working for:

Help develop leadership skills, help individuals articulate their needs and ideas, responsible for creating social and environmental change, building relationships, workshops and training sessions, planning and implementing, identifying and researching better methods, organize, carry out, projects, skill-building trainings, develop workshops, planning and implantation, project-based learning, community development, coaching/mentoring central role.

Example of a place I might work at:  Our mission is to empower, organize, individuals to become leaders, critical thinkers, develop knowledge and skills.

MY SKILLS & STRENGTHS:

  • Excellent leader with vision, self-motivated, organized
  • Self-aware, Intelligent, value-driven, resourceful
  • Excellent verbal and written communication skills
  • Passion and drive to excel, critical thinker
  • Strong research and presentation skills,
  • Wpm 90, PC/MAC, MS Office Pro, willing to travel

I value:  Respect, discipline, teamwork, leadership, growth and expansion,

Personal Areas/Fields of interest:

Organizational Development Professional Development Leadership Development Project management/Project leaders­hip, Executive coaching, Consulting, Human Resources Partner

April 22nd, 2011. Life, frustrations, MMS, CT-Scan…


It is a shitty day out, and I am in a shitty mood.  The bike shop wasn’t much help.  I have abandoned my errands for the day.  Writing always helps, so when I am in a “funk” (so-to-speak) I write.  I am annoyed and feel very under the weather today.  I am frustrated because I do not feel like I have things efficiently run in my life right now the exact way I would want it, ie: with the bikes, computer, business attire, and backpack.  In other words, my bikes… I have about 6 of them, and I have no clue how to work on bikes, and I am trying to swap parts, get the bikes to look aesthetic and efficient, etc., and all of the parts are different sizes, etc. and it’s really frustrating.

A bike is a useful and beautiful tool, but it’s useless without knowing how to work on them.  The problem is I do not want to pay (invest) in all of these bikes when in the end I will probably only want to keep 1 bicycle and 3 bikes (short-term).  I am hesitant to just fix one up (versus 3) because I do not know which one I want.  I have 6 total, and 3 I am selling — the other 3 I am going to keep until I condense down to one.  Every time I go into the bike shop Curtis looks at me like I have three heads.  I cannot help it that I am not “bike savvy,” and yet he comments about how I want to work on bikes, ie: expressed an interest to him.

What he doesn’t know, which I have not had a chance to tell him, despite the fact that I have been in his store at least 6 times since this new realization has occurred, is that I have been unable to update him and notify him that I am only interested in organization right now.  I work via priorities, and I have established a new priority.  When he and I first spoke I told him I wanted to learn “everything” about bikes, and while I do still want to learn everything, I have decided that I would rather organize first, which is what he wanted for his store anyway.  He expressed skepticism when I expressed an interest in fixing the bikes.  As it turns out, I am still interested in all of that, but it is not my #1 priority, as I am interested in the organizational piece.

On another note, I am frustrated with my current backpack.  My backpack does not have any air or ventilation holes, and as a result, I have noticed my shirt ends up drenched in sweat, and it’s pretty gross.  Last week I bought a new Osprey “Raptor” series backpack, which was great except it was too small and it didn’t have the mesh water bottle pockets on the side that are extremely important to me (they work excellent for water bottles, umbrellas, and anything else that you need quick-assess to).  The Raptor however did have everything else I was looking for, and it does conveniently come in a larger size.  It is fully ventilated and meets my needs minus the mesh pockets which are super important.  I do not think I could just get them “installed,” ie: tailored, either, because the quality would likely be cheap, and I think that’s something the company itself would need to do.  I wonder if I could pay the company to do it?

I am just frustrated… I know I will probably delete this entry because that’s what I do with negative entries… I tend to keep them up only temporarily until I feel better and then I delete them.  I just need to get it “out.”  Blah.  Every time I go into the bike shop Curtis is short with me; I do not know what he wants, but I do know that he never has the time for me… I am looking (desiring) to speak with him about the prospect of being an organizer for his shop like he and I had originally talked about before I had mentioned doing “everything” (I think I jumped overboard with the enthusiasm) and now he just seems to have lost interest… I feel like he writes me off as just some dumb girl.

I have offered to sit down with him and even treat him to lunch and yet he seems to preoccupied with work that he won’t take me up on the offer.  I am frustrated.  The man seems hard.  Difficult?  I am difficult too, but I still try and listen to someone and give them the time.  At any rate, I just want him to give me some time… where we can meet and discuss business prospects, and every time I see him it doesn’t seem like a good opportunity to ask again.  Why is it that I am extraordinarily capable yet being under-shadowed?

In terms of coaching… I am slowly and surely building a practice, but it couldn’t happen fast enough.  I am frustrated at the pace of it, and I feel like I need to get out more.  Actually, I know that I need to get out more.  I have come to the realization that I am going to attract clients via events, not via flyers and post-its.  At any rate, the events that I go to I don’t think would attract the clients I am interested in attracting?  ie, poetry, discussion groups, open mic, etc.  I am interested in attracting the typical workaholic, perfectionist personality.  Most of my clients have had this personality and are in their mid to late thirties.

I am thinking of going to some “entrepreneurial” networking groups where I can display my work there.  People can swap business cards and it will be (hopefully) comfortable for me to share my enthusiasm and skill for coaching.  I am going to look up some on meetup.com.  In the meantime, I just want to get these bikes fixed up, get a good multi-purpose backpack that is high quality and works, get my computer issues fixed (I have a brand new mac, and I do not like parts of the mac OS X operating system and am trying to use both Windows 7 and OS X together), get some appropriate attire for these professional networking events, and continue streamlining my life.

In terms of the MMS self-treatment for lyme disease and whatever else I might have going on, I am going to interchange between 1 and 2 drops because the 2 drops just seems to be too much in that it’s somewhat repulsive and it’s also staining my teeth!  I may develop some consistent structure over time, but for now I am going to take 1-2 intermittently.

My CT-Scan that was scheduled for today has been re-scheduled for next Thursday.  I put it off so that I could do research on CT-Scans.  Next Thursday I will be good to go.

April 9th, 2011. Youtube cutting off my videos!


I regret to inform everyone, but both of my videos recorded today youtube has cut off.  Additionally, youtube cut off the video before the last which is why I did not post it.  I have tried re-uploading these videos at least 5 times each, at different times and even on different days, and youtube still insists on cutting them off by 4 minutes so that the videos are only a little over a minute!  I am so sorry… I don’t know what else to do…

March 22nd, 2011. Simple living and structure :)


I believe in living a simple, but rich life.  I know my priorities and what’s important to me, and this in and of itself delivers richness.  As I have minimized and gotten rid of stuff, I have realized just how valuable life is.  I never used to look at life this way, but I am realizing now how we only live once.  It’s a shame when I see people on the streets cussing and treating their children and family bad (disrespectfully).  Life is not meant to be lived that way, for God, or our Higher Power put us here to connect, live, breathe, and share.  Every day I am prioritizing, and the act of prioritizing never gets old to me.  I enjoy it.

Soon, proven that my health improves, I will be able to make some very good money and be able to support myself and eventually a family.  Education, travel, fun, laughter… these are the things that matter to me.  I need flexibility and creativity when it comes to a job/career.  I cannot be stifled, and I need the work to have a creative component.  I am about to buy some plants for my bedroom; I am really excited.  Did you know that plants breathe oxygen?  Yes, they do =)

I can’t wait to nourish them and buy nice organic soil for them and to water them every day.  I am excited.  I am also excited to keep my cat groomed and even more excited to have him shaved again this summer!

Last summer:
He loves sitting in the window, and I love watching him.  I am glad that life is becoming a lot more simple for me, and I am excited to buy a bicycle soon.  Every day I am checking Craigslist to see what comes up.  I am really looking to buy a red, blue, or green — preferably blue (my favorite color aside from green ;)) Schwinn Varsity — women or men’s, although I would prefer to have the standard “men’s” bike with the straight-style bar across the top.

The bike owner said I need a “48cm” frame and a 28″ stand-over height bar; I am pretty short!  5’4 :P  Eh ;)  So right now I am working on (still — a never-ending project) minimizing, sorting, and re-arranging my room.  I think that I am living the life of the “Artist’s Way,” as I believe that others have gone down the same road.

I am excited to eventually have my “structure” be official so that I can start maximizing my personal happiness and success.  The structure will enable me to build a foundation in which to build a successful life.

Back to work!