She’s not going to understand because she’s too caught up with herself. I need to be much more selective about the people that I let into my life. I need to stick to what I know is important and dependability is definitely one of them. It’s about maturity.
One month ago I wrote:
As I mentioned in the previous entry, I am desiring to find a way to work for the local vintage bicycle store, and so I have come up with an idea. I am going to try my best to offer a proposal, ie: What I have to offer, what I desire, my thoughts, observations, etc. Here is what I have so far…. Of course this “proposal” is in the preliminary stages, but it’s a start…
March 25th, 2011
Before I walked into the store, I recorded my thoughts onto a personal hand-held miniature recorder:
“I would like to say, “What is your mission, and what would you like to see happen with this store?”
Also maybe, “Do you care to see it better?”
Thought: “I am determined to get my foot in the door.”
Also, “What do you hope to see happen with the store?” ie, what changes, if any, have you thought about and are interested in making?”
Acknowledged that he may be happy with the way that things are set up. Inner dialog: “Do I need to work somewhere where change is welcome?” (I believe I benefit from being heard and having my ideas taken seriously).
I need to find out the mission; the over all aim, and what it comes down to is whether or not he wants to expand upon it.
Inner dialog: I should call myself a “solutions specialist” because I can see what areas need improvement and am quick to spot inefficiency and uselessness. I excel where change is needed.
I also need to be clear on my motives, what it is I am looking for, and what it is I have to offer.
Notes taken while at the shop:
Wanted: Part-time (2-3 days a week) work w/the potential of full-time
I can walk into a room and instantly size-up a person or situation
-Want to have keys on me while I work
“Everyone can use a bicycle,” I thought to myself
Customer advice: Cash only!
As good as your word (my observation of the place, and especially the owner’s behavior)
Intuitive, great sense of humor, thrifty, health focus (in terms of Curtis)
Been in business nearly 3 decades; 13 years at this location – history of 3 locations.
To do/interested in:
-Selling Note: Organization + Selling = Marketing! (Interested in marketing approaches)
-Create Q&A guide (physical and online) w/simple but practical buying information for customers
-Would like to create visual aids (part of marketing) Note: The visual aids will provide an additional tool to help customers understand and learn the differences about bikes and help them better be able to choose/select a bike that is right for them, and it will seek to educate (inform) the public and potential shoppers on the options for choosing a bike and even enhancing the bike. I can (have the ability/strength) to take something complex and turn it into something simple, easy-to-understand, and effective, increasing customer satisfaction and sales.
All of the employees are thrifty (observation)
“Humanitarian” feel- owner, employees, customers
Observation: Close to Whole Foods (Ideal location; practical, where I eat/buy groceries, meet good like-minded, similar valued people)
Friendly, knowledgeable staff
“Mechanically sound” – I like this, and I believe it (integrity is demonstrated 100% — this is rare, phenomenal)
Look up: Gear usage
Look up/research in order to learn about and be able to sell:
-Type of handle bars
-Type of rims
-Grips for handle bars
-Type/color (options) of reflectors
-Tires – Research thoroughly
I would like to be able (Knowledge + Experience) to disassemble and re-assemble my entire bike AND all the bikes in the store
I like that the men are real and down-to-earth – they are knowledgeable, sincere, and passionate
My belief: Bikes are beautiful and practical
I would absolutely love to go to bike swaps (I love travel, and I could also learn this way, as well as meet people)
I am eager to learn
I need to know the over all goal – the mission
So that I can work towards –
to attaining it
Strength of Mine: Pro’s/Con’s focus
Ability to identify Ability to quickly size up situations
My belief: Everyone can benefit from a bicycle and trying one is the first step, which can then lead to owning one! (This is the belief that I will operate from, that will go on in the back of my mind, which will inevitably and involuntarily fuel sales)
Recorded thoughts after meeting with Curtis:
I don’t want to sound too eager; I want to fix up my bike, and then help others fix up theirs so that they’re happy. I think I would really enjoy working with bikes; I’m going to do some research tonight to learn more. I could really digg it working there. I like that a bicycle is not just a “thing;” it’s practical – and not only is it practical, but it’s useful so it aligns with my values.
I want to say to him, “What do you want from me; I can deliver.” If it’s quick turn around, I can do it. “If it’s organization, I can do it. If it’s leadership/management, I can do it.” I just want to be happy and love the work that I do. If I have to put together a proposal or plan in order to get this job I will do it. I want to say “teach me everything there is to know about bicycles.”
I’m going to say to him, “Alright this is what I have for you…” and show him the notes and research.
“One man’s junk is another man’s treasure.”
I think I can learn a lot from Curtis.
He apparently can size people up; I wonder what he thinks about me.
If he provides the opportunity, I will give back.
If he tells me the goal, I will do my best to satisfy and fulfill the mission.
I can be his “go-to” person.
I will do what it takes to learn the trade inside out.
I can only learn work under certain people, and I am willing to work under him (that is rare; I have to trust that someone is knowledge and knows what they’re talking about)
I would rather make less money working for him more hours than working somewhere else less hours making more money.
Notes taken at home that evening:
Yes, I am doing my homework ;)
I was interested in doing some research on the bikes, and so when I arrived back home I eagerly googled:
- Everything you need to know when working at a bicycle shop
- Everything you need to know when working with bicycles
- Everything you need to know when first learning about bicycles
Note: As I researched articles I found it helpful to specify my search to “used” bicycles, and moreover, “vintage” bicycles (1930’s-1980’s).
The good thing is I don’t want someone to just take my bike to a shop and have someone“fix” my bike for me, but rather, I would like to be shown how to fix it on my own, which shows a high-level of commitment and passion to learning about, maintaining, and retailing bicycles.
The benefits of owning a bicycle are timeless… They include:
(Further researching). I demonstrate a commitment to learning about bicycles and preserving their beautiful nature and marketing them to individuals for their personal satisfaction and fulfillment. I am interested in customer retention and know naturally how to increase sales and revenue, as I have worked for many retailers and been a top seller, knowledgeable, thorough, productive, and insightful.
SKILLS & STRENGTHS
- Honest, passionate, creative, self-aware, self-motivated
- Bright, intellectually curious, hardworking, persistent
- Excellent leader, drive, organization, vision
- Excellent communication—written and verbal
Email sent to Curtis May 4th, 2011:
I would like to take up the offer of organizing your store. I see potential with the store and would like the opportunity to make it better. I am interested in improvement and efficiency. I am interested in learning of your vision and mission for the store and aligning things with your mission and vision.
I have been working as an organizational coach for nearly 2 years now and would like the opportunity to work as a consultant. I have a natural affinity for it and believe I am talented and can offer you something that you and your employees, as well as customers would greatly benefit from.
I want to help make the store the best — that means better reviews, ie: 5-star and more money for the business.
I understand and recognize that you are on a tight budget and that you also like to save money. I would be happy to work with you at the same rate as your other employees and come in as an outsider. I would like to work at your store externally a few times a week. I am happy to come off hours as well when it’s quite and there’s breathing room and space. I am okay working when it’s busy as well.
I would like to be given the opportunity.
I would like to work with an organization to help 1. Optimize the organization (ie, it’s structure/order), and I would like to 2. Work directly with its people, using my skills and abilities to help individuals develop their potential…
I seek to work with an agency in helping the agency carry out its mission, values, and vision to the fullest, mobilizing resources, creating energy, and movement
I am interested in work that entails the following:
Staff trainings, team development, facilitating events, leading workshops, educating and training, facilitating personal growth, leading discussions, creating PowerPoint presentations for learning purposes, enlisting participants feedback, raising awareness, advocating, central role in events/planning, part of a committee board, revising job duties/descriptions, able to revise/updating agency’s website, blog, twitter, and Facebook/calendar, able to create/revise organizational chart, create/develop resource guides & handbooks.
Ideal work environment: -Structured w/clear organizational chart -Ample opportunities for growth and advancement -Ample opportunities for leadership/staff development -Strong focus on personal growth (abundant travel/training opportunities) -Competitive salary w/excellent benefits -Regular staff/board/committee meetings -Ability to work independently as well as be a part of a strong team -Work with value-minded colleagues… same mission/purpose
Nature of ideal work…
-Nature of work involves creative, innovative problem-solving -Be able to effect change and policy -Help other employees identify their strengths and weaknesses -Help other employees identify and overcome barriers and challenges -Demonstrate and encourage leadership skills
Ideal job summary (essay): My ideal work environment would have clear guidelines and clear organization. The environment would allow for creative problem solving and implementation. *It is crucial that within this structured environment, there are ample opportunities for creativity, innovation, and growth/advancement. The organization would offer a competitive salary with good benefits. The environment would consist of value/mission-driven colleagues who are passionate and committed to maintaining high levels of personal and professional integrity.
There would be minimal supervision (autonomy/freedom would be valued) but a strong focus on the team and team development. Ample opportunities for staff development/growth, and learning would be offered. Summary of work: I need work that allows me to be innovative/develop and that’s challenging. I greatly enjoy overcoming obstacles and barriers. I also benefit/need a great deal of autonomy (freedom/independence) but to be a part of a strong team with a strong mission. I would also like to be a part of council or board (committee) meetings where changes can be brainstormed and further improved.
NOT ideal work environment:
-Lack of opportunities for growth and learning -Minimal opportunities for creative problem solving -Heavy supervision (I need freedom/autonomy –minimal supervision)
The organization should be organized (external environment, as well as structurally) and things should be efficient. Employees should be competent. I am an idea person, and so I would like to be able to make suggestions and have those suggestions heard and taken seriously (ie, implemented). I would love to be able to implement those changes myself eventually. Constant growth, learning, and challenge is essential. The worst thing is to be working a job that is not rewarding and not challenging, ie: stagnant (ie, conventional). I would not thrive in an organization that is not open to change and constant growth/development. I especially thrive in new agencies where programs and curriculum are being developed and there’s ample room for ideas/feedback.
In terms of work, I value: Organization, Efficiency, Growth/Learning Opportunities, Competent Staff, Challenge, Competitive benefits.
Type of organization I am interested in working for:
Help develop leadership skills, help individuals articulate their needs and ideas, responsible for creating social and environmental change, building relationships, workshops and training sessions, planning and implementing, identifying and researching better methods, organize, carry out, projects, skill-building trainings, develop workshops, planning and implantation, project-based learning, community development, coaching/mentoring central role.
Example of a place I might work at: Our mission is to empower, organize, individuals to become leaders, critical thinkers, develop knowledge and skills.
MY SKILLS & STRENGTHS:
- Excellent leader with vision, self-motivated, organized
- Self-aware, Intelligent, value-driven, resourceful
- Excellent verbal and written communication skills
- Passion and drive to excel, critical thinker
- Strong research and presentation skills,
- Wpm 90, PC/MAC, MS Office Pro, willing to travel
I value: Respect, discipline, teamwork, leadership, growth and expansion,
Personal Areas/Fields of interest:
Organizational Development Professional Development Leadership Development Project management/Project leadership, Executive coaching, Consulting, Human Resources Partner
I have still been taking MMS 2 drops per day per hour now since April 11th. The last few days I have been having joint-pain in my hand/fingers. I was symptom-free for 10 days. Granted, the past 3 days I have been thrown completely off schedule and have been eating unhealthy. I plan to get back to the “basics” so-to-speak, ie: healthy structure/routine tomorrow. I am speculating that there may be a correlation between my symptoms and junk food, but I will not be able to determine this until more time has gone by.
My current weight is 120. It fluctuates between 118 and 122. I am satisfied with my weight. I would like to eventually incorporate some light exercise into my routine. I already walk a few times a week, and I am in the process of trying to build a bicycle. I plan to take the bicycle to the shore and ride along the boardwalk. I am a bit hesitant about riding in the city. Note: I have not ridden a bicycle since age 11 or 12. I am excited, but wary! I do not like the idea of riding in the street with cars and would rather ride on the sidewalk, however, it’s illegal.
I am having my period and it’s really heavy. I am crampy and miserable today. It is over 80 degrees outside — it went from being cold, rainy and dreary to sunny and sizzling. I would much rather live somewhere where the weather is in the 70’s all year long. I hate the extreme hot and too much sun, and I think I’d rather be ice cold than hot. My skin burns easily.
I am tired today. As I said, my schedule has been off. I had someone over here working on some bikes I have for sale and the work took twice as long as expected and so I did not get to sleep until 2AM. My schedule calls for me to be asleep by 11PM. As I stated earlier, I will attempt to resume my structure tomorrow. I am currently working on (juggling) multiple “projects,” ie: bikes, books, networking opportunities, play, etc. I am most interested in building a life for myself.
The MMS is starting to taste bad. I am not sure if it’s because it has been used a lot now and/or has sat near the sun/warm temperature, etc., but it’s starting to become repulsive. I am taking 1 to 2 drops intermittently. I am trying to tell myself it’s just “lemon juice,” but it’s beginning to leave an immediate bad aftertaste in my mouth. I tried mixing it with pomegranate juice without “added” vitamin C and it turns out pomo is an antioxidant so it’s not allowed because it deactivates the MMS! I ordered Jim Humble’s book on MMS from an Amazon bookseller and the book has not arrived, nor has my other Lyme book shipped via Amazon fulfillment. I am very frustrated and am going to have to call them tomorrow. Both items stated they were delivered…
Light, efficient, quality, aesthetic bike is what I am looking for — basically what I look for in everything. ie, portable, quality, aesthetic. I am fortunately not having any regrets about ridding the car — so far it seems to be working out; the winter may be another story. At any rate, I am again just working on building self-sufficiency. I will be going to some networking events soon for professionals. I first have to get my hands on some professional attire, ie: white button-down blouse and trousers, although it has been brought to my attention that a blouse I already have can be taken to a tailor and adjusted.
I am going to chill out now, listen to some music, look at some pictures, and eat lunch. I will then likely hop in the shower to help soothe my cramps and then go upstairs and relax. I want to go outside but it’s entirely too hot. Unfortunately this is how Philadelphia is most all the time between April and September. Blah. I just want to keep the focus on becoming self-sufficient so that I can live out my values and vision. I will keep persisting.
I regret to inform everyone, but both of my videos recorded today youtube has cut off. Additionally, youtube cut off the video before the last which is why I did not post it. I have tried re-uploading these videos at least 5 times each, at different times and even on different days, and youtube still insists on cutting them off by 4 minutes so that the videos are only a little over a minute! I am so sorry… I don’t know what else to do…
I have been hearing this song on the radio a lot here in Philadelphia, and I like it.
I became choked up at a point in this song when Eminem was singing.
He and I are of similar paths: